115. You’ll remember him as the man

who always gave up too soon.
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114. You don’t remember much about his voice,

except that it dipped in tone at the end of “Mom,” like he knew it and he would be loathed.
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113. You once found a vinyl record

he and your mother made for your grandparents. In it, he says, “Hi, Mom.”
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112. Your father’s mind is as blank

as a white sheet of paper.
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110. Crush long gone, you’ll feel more sorrow

about the man killed in the factory explosion, even though you won’t know him either.
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109. In 1998, a factory will blow up

at the same moment Donny, Jr., ends his own life with a double-barreled shotgun.
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108. You do not think that long-lost brothers

ought to be taboo; he will not feel like a blood sibling.
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107. You will like his beautiful and sweet wife Annie,

but you will still be jealous.
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106. At 36, he will have large dark eyes

and black bushy eyebrows--you will have a fleeting crush on him.
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105. You have not yet met Donny, Jr.,

though, at age 30, you will meet him for the first and last time.
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104. You first met Linda when you were nine,

just after she had her first baby.
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103. Your mother has, too, cast her sexual net

out to sea: another sister and two more brothers.
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102. You are a lone child in a sea

of half brothers and sisters, scattered across the country.
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100. Linda, Donny, Jr., and Scarlett--

in that precise order.
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99. You know nothing about his sex life,

only that he made three children with two different women.
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97. You believe they got married,

but you wouldn’t stake your life on that being a verifiable fact.
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96. She ran off with him when she was 17,

had you at 19. He was 33.
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95. Your father left his first wife

and two children for your mother.
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94. When your mother was still in grade school,

he was a sailor, fighting in World War II.
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93. On his hairy right forearm,

he sports a tattoo of an anchor and rope.
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